I am struggling w my relationship, it was never easy on his side because of a past w cocaine & others, alcohol and consequently depression. When we met things (2,5years ago) things started yo change for him w my positive influence and his willingness to change. Atm he doesn’t drink, no drugs and he is on anti-depressants and therapy. It has been a long, slow process and everything is around his moods. I do feel like it’s a process that we’re going through and at the end it might be ok. But when is the end? What about my needs and desires? No babies because he’s not ready and we’re 40 this year. W his known life being under the effect of drugs it feels like he doesn’t know how to confront reality do he lies to himself to keep things right instead of dealing w it. Feels like I am educating someone rather than enjoying my relationship. Here’s the question should I stay or should I go? Lot’s of things to consider break ups are very tough, I don’t have anyone in this country to support me mentally (I am financially independent) and I do love him.