I have struggled with depression for the last 5 or so years and decided to get off meds for my second pregnancy. I felt great and was excited/determined to make it to a year med free.

Then I gave birth.

I’m miserable. I’m one week postpartum and I’ve had endless thoughts of suicide and have no patience or connection to my one year old. I’m hurting my husband with how much of a wreck I am. I’m angry and I hate the person I am with this cloak over me.

Please help.

I don’t know what to do. I’m struggling with the guilt of taking meds while breast feeding but don’t want to switch to formula.

I’m honestly scared of when my husband returns to work in a week and I’m left alone with a newborn and 14 month old.

I’ve tried Zoloft and I didn’t feel it helped much. What medications actually helped with your depression?