I’ve been in a relationship for 3 year 7 months now. With an amazing Man who tries really hard to understand me and who loves me. I really love this man so much that I can do anything for him. But I’m not so sure anymore if he loves me as much as I love him. Personally, I am a 22 year old, I don’t have the best self esteem and I mostly don’t feel good about myself. I have so much self pity...I don’t feel beautiful, my family thinks I am a difficult person because I am a highly sensitive person and non of them understand me.. I don’t have a close relationship with them because I feel like whenever I try to get close to them, they will say something that will make me feel judged. I have very few close friends but I only have one really close female friend who I tell almost everything and I feel like her and my boyfriend are the only two people who really know me and love me for who I am. But lately I’m having so many questions about my boyfriend. From the time we started dating.. I feel like I mostly have to force him to give me attention, I’m always asking him to act in very ways for me. Like this one time he came to see me after work, just after a few mins,he received a call from he’s female work mate who he was with the whole day, and he just tells me he has to go see her and leaves me just like that. And this other time, a friend of mine invited me to a birthday dinner, when we were there, I had to force him to dance because all my friends were asked to dance by their insignificant others and he was just seated. At that same party, he left me to go have conversation with another girl while I was seated by myself. These a time I went to see him at he’s office, he asked me to wait for him to get done so we can go home together,I waited for almost 3 hours. When he was done, he just tells me I have to go for basketball practice and tells me to go home alone. And he never opens the car door for me, would let me seat in the middle seat In between he’s male friends. The worst was when we first had sex,a few mins after we got done, he just turned and faced me he’s back and I had to force him to cuddle me. He only posts me on he’s social media after making up after we had an argument. If I ask him why he doesn’t do that often, he tell me it’s because I don’t either, which in my defense I try when I can,and I feel like as a man he should compare that.He never gets me things without me hinting it to him , like recently, he got me a promise ring.. which a few months ago.. I hinted it to him and my friend hinted it to him too. He’s always deleting he’s chat history on he’s apps.. WhatsApp Facebook even Instagram. Every time we have an argument, he always gets so defensive even when it’s so clear he’s wrong and tries to pin it on me by asking me things like “why you don’t trust me “ and I get to feel bad and blame myself for everything because I know I am a highly sensitive person and I tend to think too much. He’s been lying to me recently and it’s so clear.. I noticed he saved a girls picture on he’s Instagram . I asked him about it and he said he doesn’t even know how to save pictures on Instagram, and yet he even renamed a folder with saved post. But it’s he’s account, I just don’t understand how he can’t know how to do that when he’s got so many saved posts on he’s account. Last week Saturday, he told me he was going out with he’s sisters for a birthday dinner. I noticed he’s sisters posted so many pictures but he wasn’t in any, so I asked him why he didn’t take pictures with them, he said he meet them late, after they took the pictures. So after lying to him that I spoke to he’s sister then he admitted that he wasn’t with them, he said he was just out with he’s boys. He didn’t want to tell me because he didn’t want me to get mad at him.. which I haven’t done in a very long time.and I actually don’t think it’s think it’s wrong for him to hang with the boys 😏.. I haven’t realized all this till recently and I’m now starting to question if he really loves me. I’ve been with him for a very long time and I just can’t imagine myself without him. I’m scared to be lonely because he understands me better than most people and he makes me feel loved. But I’m not sure if it’s only because I have a very low self esteem, and personally it’s really hard for me to appreciate myself. I just don’t know what to do. Please I need some advice .. help a girl out please 😭😢☹️