As I sit here writing this, the tears are flowing, the anger is clouding most of my judgement and the depression is taking over.

My SO has a child from previous marriage. I love her to bits, I care for her like my own child.

The constant fight of child support, dealing with his ex, finances and courts is taking its toll on me, and on our relationship.

Due to him being behind on child support payments, MEP has frozen all our accounts, leaving me with no money to care for our new baby. I am angry that he let this happen. I'm angry that I have been put in this situation, and that my baby has to feel the repercussions of his laziness. It is putting extreme strain on our relationship.

I feel stuck, and alone in this situation that few can relate too.

His family makes huge effort to work with the ex to see that child, and makes zero effort to see our baby. It makes me angry beyond any words.

I just need to vent, and get this off my chest. I feel like I have the weight of world on my shoulders and no one to turn too, no one to talk too. I just cry, and cry. Or I yell and scream because I'm so angry and hurt.

My SO works out of town, leaving me alone with our baby 50% of the time. Leaving me to deal with the mess he created. I just don't know if I will be able to get over this, and forgive him. I want our family together so much, but at what cost? My happiness? A relationship without love, commitment, honesty, support? A future of debt, struggling to pay bills/rent, and frustrations. These problems are out of my control, but they are gravely affected my life, and my baby. I have a good career, I work hard, I am dedicated. I do not want to be penalized for something that is out of my control.