My boyfriend's best friend and his wife are expecting there first baby and we are over there all the time because they are all really close and everytime we go over there I can feel myself getting deeper and deeper into this depression hole I've been in and its causing issues in my relationship and I don't know what to do....I'm wanting to be a mom and start a family but it feels like odds are against me and I already suffer from anxiety and depression and I just don't know what to do to get out of this hope I'm in