what’s next

I feel like i’m in a really weird position in my life i dropped out of college and am back living with my mother...I absolutely hate it. I’m so used to just being on my own and having my own that now I just feel like i’m moving backwards because I don’t have nor can I do the things I used to be able to do. I’ve realized I struggle from extreme depression and anxiety but haven’t found the best ways to cope with it yet.

I’ve also been struggling with my “long distance relationship” which is pretty much failing miserably because I don’t trust him and get extremely insecure because of thoughts I might have in my head or just not getting the reassurance i need. I feel like a failure and I feel like a burden I can’t keep a man a house a car or get a degree. I think about my future every single day but it feels impossible to get in a better position right now.