My career has always been very important to me, however I have always thought if I had children I would be stay at home because that is what my mom was and it was amazing. Anyways flash forward to now and I don't really have that option to stay at home long term. So today we toured a daycare. It was perfect and wouldn't break the bank either. When we got home my husband asked if I wanted to fill out the application and I said no. I instantly became insanely upset. The thought of not being home with my baby made me cry. It's not only that, but I work an hour away. That's 10.5 hours a day away. My goal is to find a job closer to home, and I may even quit after the baby is born, as long as I can save enough money, but as a FTM I can't believe I'm already freaking out about daycare and we just hit 20 weeks!