My fiancé and I have a 1 year old son, and I’m currently 12 weeks pregnant. (One year old was on purpose, current pregnancy was a whoops)

And I’m starting to feel like I don’t really love my fiancé anymore. I don’t like how angry and impatient he makes me act.

And it’s not so simple to just leave, because then he’ll get part custody, and I don’t want him to ever be alone with our kids.

He has a temper (that I had NEVER seen before I was pregnant with number 1) and he expects our one year to act like a perfectly behaved 5 year old. And I’m honestly afraid if my one year old got upset enough he might hurt him. If I try and tell him to be patient and that our one year old doesn’t understand he flips out.

Plus he RARELY helps me and when he does acts like he deserves a medal. Not to mention he constantly degrades me and treats me like an idiot for ever having my own thoughts or feelings. (Or actually calls me an idiot/stupid).

I just feel like me and my babies deserve better, but I want to protect them from him. Idk if the best way to do that is by staying or by leaving and chancing the court giving him part custody.

I don’t know what to do. :(

********Editing so my words don’t get twisted. And I can stay anonymous.

I am NOT impatient with my baby, anyone will tell you I am one of the most patient parents there are. I mean that he constantly picks fights and makes feel like absolute shit. He makes me feel worthless, and like a failure.

So I misspoke when I said he makes me impatient. I am impatient with him, and constantly angry at him. NEVER my baby.

I also don’t like the constant fighting in front of my baby, or the emotions that I’m feeding to the baby I’m pregnant with.

Also I say he expects our son to “auto educated” because he yells at him and pushes him and immediately flips out when he doesn’t follow directions.

****** Second edit.

He won’t ever admit fault, all of our problems are my fault because “I’m stupid” or because “I’m just pissing him off non stop.”

By saying things like “can you keep your shoes off the bed?” Or “Do you think you could put your dishes in the kitchen before you go to bed?”

Or even “stop cussing/calling me names in front of our son.”

I’m over it, I just gotta figure out how to leave without him getting my babies.

Today he was yelling about something that doesn’t even effect us, and I asked him to stop yelling. And he screamed “FUCK YOU!” And left. Haven’t heard from him since