I am trying so hard not to acknowledge it this month. We have only been trying for 5 months now but it's difficult. It seems like each new cycle my body adds something it's NEVER done before to throw me off. I test, I cry, I beat myself up and I repeat the cycle. This time around we added the use of Preseed and some slightly different positions. We timed it based off of opks and glows ovulation prediction for me. And then I have genuinely not thought about it.

And now I've had undeniable, unignorable symptoms for a week. AF is due in 4 or 5 days and I'm so frustrated.

I can't ignore not being able to sleep until early morning each day because of feeling extremely nauseous. I haven't thrown up in 7 years. I don't get the flu. It's abnormal for me.

I can't ignore being so crabby. I don't get that way for AF. I have been short tempered for a few days now. I don't know if it's from the lack of sleep or what.

I have my cramps in my lower back usually. This time I have a dull cramping in my lower pelvic area. First the right side. Then the next week was the left.

These last few cycles, my breasts have been so sore. The last few. It's a new pre-AF thing, but a consistent thing now.

Of course I will test when my period is late. It varies a few days. I want a baby but I don't want to see a negative test.