So upset!!!

Hi everyone I am so incredibly frustrated and upset but trying to stay calm and let this go.... I had fertility issues, most likely pcos but ultimately had two pregnancies following hormone treatment - clomid and dhea. One pregnancy resulted in miscarriage and the clomid pregnancy resulted in my beautiful daughter who is now 2 years old. Fast forward to January 1 year ago, and my husband was feeling sluggish and his doctor put him on testosterone therapy. My husband told him we are trying to conceive and he said it might lower sperm count a little bit but would increase sex drive so balance it out. I got my period back last March and stopped breastfeeding completely last June. Starting in September I went back on clomid for THREE MONTHS! I also completely overhauled my diet in the last two years and eat and clean keto/paleo diet. My pcos is basically gone with my dietary changes so I couldn’t figure out what was wrong. Well after some more conversations with my obgyn we did a semen and blood test for my husband and his sperm is completely wiped out. So all year we’ve been trying and going through the 2 week waits, buying all these pregnancy tests. Trying everything. Not to mention the clomid which has crappy side effects. And it’s a whole year wasted of trying because of this idiot GP. My obgyn said testosterone therapy often acts like male birth control by wiping out sperm production. It can take 6-12 months to recover in some cases! I’m so upset and wish I had someone to talk to about this. Anyhow, hope this info helps someone else who might be in a similar situation. I hope that we will be in a better place to try and conceive in a few months since the shots have stopped and hopefully the sperm count will increase soon.