Hi guys,

I honestly feel so drained. Being with my partner makes me feel happy. However, our relationship is not healthy at all. He cheated on me so much in the past and I forgave him. And now theres a trust problem and he’s getting fed up of my trust issues. I know I should have left him the first time I found out he cheated, but I stayed and allowed myself to catch deeper feelings for him. We’ve been together for a year and two months now & He’s become such an important person in my life. Now I just don’t want to let him go. I’ve basically become attached to this boy. Earlier in the month we had a break for three days (he dumped me because of an argument) and it was the worst three days of my life. I cried all the time, I stalked his social media and i ended up telling him i wanted him back. Now we’re back together and it’s just not the same. He acts like he does not care about me. If i try to have a serious conversation about our relationship with him he will get annoyed and walk off/hang the phone up on me. If i keep trying to get answers out of him, he just says to me that we should break up because he can’t make me happy. And it hurtssss so bad. Because he’s not even trying. He knows how much I love him and he knows im willing to do anything for him which is y he treats me like this. After he says we should break up, he tells me he loves me and wants to be with me. He does it so regularly. He keeps playing with my emotions. One minute he loves me, the next minute he wants to be free. I know im stupid for allowing him to treat me like this. All my friends have told me I need to leave him. But i cant. He’s my best friend. He’s someone who i can tell everything to. I’ve been thru so much with him & done so much to just let go.

Im not good with break ups and the thought of leaving him is making me cry. I don’t like being sad and quiet around my family & wen they ask what’s wrong i say nothing. I don’t like dealing with this on my own but no one is really here for me. Yes my friends keep telling me to leave him- but when I do leave him no one ever checks up on me. No one messages me. I just lay in bed crying by myself.

Questions-

What can I do to get over him asap?

How do I make the break up less painful?

I cannot allow him to continue treating me like this in 2019. Im turning 18 this year and im still allowing people to take the piss out of me 🤦🏾‍♀️😭😭

This is the SECOND time a female has added me on Snapchat telling me my boyfriend is cheating on me. Whenever I try to talk to him about it to get answers, he just gets angry at me & says im always starting arguments. WHY CANT I LEAVE HIM🤦🏾‍♀️🤦🏾‍♀️