((Here goes nothing 😢😪😔))

We met as kids growning to love somebody hell anybody who would love us back he was my 1st love!!he didn't mind my tomboyish ways in fact that's what he loved the most!!😂

He opened me up to who I was as a person, and to all the beautiful ways in which one can love the world. He inspired me to travel, be free and enjoy my life. He brought out the best in me once upon a time so much i would move heaven and earth for him.He unlocked channels in my brain that created new waves of thinking.

“I GREW INTO MYSELF WITH THIS MAN WHO WAS ONCE A CHILD WITH ME."

And then we eventually drifted apart, weaving in and out of each other’s lives for years.we somehow got in touch when I came into my -20s. He called me, laughing and telling me it was ok and we had a beginning even if we couldn't have a ending.The last few years I heard from him more and more never ever missed my birthday. He had questions about my realtionship journey and how my kids where,he also liked to talk about his own struggles i listened and cried. We were lucky to have each other to confide in. But mostly, we spoke like we had time.A few days ago, I dreamt something was wrong he came to me in i felt uncertain about alot but It had been a few months since we spoke. So I fb stalked and seen he passed. He took his own life 😢😯😯I’m grateful that I had the chance to tell him that I had really loved him, even if it was in the only way I could. I’m grateful that he understood me, even if he liked to joke about what a mess I was. I’m grateful that he found his way into so many of my life chapters, however unplanned that was it worked for us. And I’m so sad that he won’t be there for the next ones.!!😔💯😢😢😢💔💔