Not liking touch, clit doesnt feel...

So I've never liked being touched. I wouldn't even let anyone touch my hand this time last year. No hugs, nothing. I was a virgin at 30 for this reason.

So, I've met a man I really do love. I explained the way I feel, he seems to understand. I can now tolerate being touched by him. I can't say I get a great deal of pleasure from it though. I like holding hands, I love kissing and hugging, but I only tolerate him touching me during sex. And I cannot stand him touching my vagina. I just get so very tense and I feel like I'm letting him down because of this...he loves touching.

I don't know if it's just me or I genuinely just get no pleasure from having my clit touched. Does anyone else feel the same? There's just absolutely no feeling there. I enjoy sex with him, I just wish I could enjoy that feeling. It feels like my clit doesn't work! 🤪