I’m just here to vent & need a place where we can all cry & hope together...

Well anyways, last month I thought I had some spotting on the day after my period was supposed to start. I knew I shouldn’t get my hopes up but I wasn’t cramping & the blood never got dark & stayed a light pink. I had some work meetings & was just so stinking happy the whole time because I really thought I was pregnant!! I spent the whole morning just glowing & loving life!!! I knew there was still a chance I wasn’t pregnant but I wanted to just have my moment of happiness. So later I bought 2 tests & both of them were negative. I felt sad but kept thinking maybe it was still early. Well the next day my period came in full force. The problem is this seems to happen to me every month. Why can’t I just forget about it & let it happen when it’s meant to happen😕