I’ve known him for 6 years been together 2 1/2, we’ve been down this road before. The aggression, lying, haven’t had sex in months, always “tired”! Only reason he got away with it for so long this time is because I gave him my trust 100% he had earned it back. My intuition is never wrong!

He’s very good at hiding it! He manages to work 56-60 hours a weeks! Pay 90% of the bills and knows I can’t work full time right now so I count on him! Well I’m done ! I’ll drop out of school if I have to and Ill do everything I need to do to have him gone! My marriage (previously married father of my two kids) was a shit show! Abuse, drugs, infidelity you name it I dealt with it! I will not go down this road again! Not for my unborn son or the two kids I do have! I’m done making sacrifices because he guilts me into telling me I’m supposed to stand by his side through the good and bad ! (We not married btw)! He’s not a bad person but he’s not for me I’m 28 he’s 34 and yet I constantly get walked all over !

I’ve been battling depression this pregnancy and I’m angry now because I thought he had changed I mean , his brother over dosed and died ! Why , why keep doing this knowing the moment I leave he has nothing! No phone, no car , no place to live! He’s always comparing his kids to mine. Telling me he will never love my kids like his own. They are my responsibility because they are my kids ! Yet when I have I give to all! Ugh I’m so pissed took everything in me not to make a scene for my kids !

Update:

I’m going to add to this anonymously , the part with my children I stayed because he always told me it takes time. That he can’t just love them right away but after 2 years I’m starting to realize no amount of time will change this.

Secondly he has gone to rehab , I’ve helped him though withdrawals then he end up on subutex to stay clean and back on “perks/oxy” ! I know I’m making the right choice i hate that he made it so easy for me !