I’m so confused 😒

Abigail

I don’t know what to do honestly I’m 6 weeks pregnant and honestly i keep doubting on keeping it my heart wants to but my mind keeps telling me I’m not ready i am only 21 and i already have a 15 Months old baby I’m not with the father I’m still living at home with my parents i have a small room it’s very uncomfortable with us 2 in the room i don’t know how i will do with a 3rd baby also the father is the same he doesn’t even want it his been telling me to abort the baby that we are not ready... I Already told my mom she doesn’t want me to do anything stupid she wants me to have it she says that this could be my last baby but that i have to have it but it’s just so hard the thought of everything is just coming At me i hope my babyfather changed his thought and we can be a family but yet i can’t force him

In September of last year i found out i was pregnant my second time being pregnant and i wasn’t happy myself i was only like 3 weeks and

I went with doing a abortion and honestly the pain i felt was killing me inside i don’t want to pass by the same pain but i just don’t know

I’m so confused

I’m just posting this for someone to give me some type of encouragement. ( PLEASE DON’T JUDGE ME )

i don’t know what to do i feel like my life is a mess

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COMMENT (7)

Ma

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I feel like since you felt so horrible the best thing is to keep the baby. You have your mom encouraging you. I know you can do it love. Have the baby and after get on a form of birth control or tubes tied maybe to prevent more un wanted pregnancies.

Ab

Abigail • Jan 30, 2019
Thank you and yes I’ve been saying that today I ask my mom if the doctor can sowe me up for me not to have any more kids

Ka

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Sounds like your heart is set not having a abortion why punish yourself going through that pain again. Ok your going to struggle for now but it’s a temporary thing babies grow up and you be able to sort things out for yourself and your children at some point hun, especially as you got emotional support from your parents your not alone. Times look scary when thing are thrown at you but they won’t always be hard huni 😊

Ab

Abigail • Jan 30, 2019
Thank youuu

Ka

Ka • Jan 30, 2019
I think we all had moments like that wishing things was different, we can drive ourselves crazy overthinking especially at night time when your on your own. Try enjoy the situation your in now being pregnant and bringing another little bundle of joy into your life, then set yourself a goal to achieve I’m sure you don’t want to be living with your parents forever so that could be a goal save up and try and move out.. good luck huni 😊

Ab

Abigail • Jan 30, 2019
Thank youuu for your words and i do want to keep my baby but when i feel alone at night i feel like my mind gets attacked sometimes I just wish my life was different

Mi

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Seek non-religious based counseling, talk to somebody who isn’t in your family. Do it soon because the further along you get, the more limited your options become.