Due date approaching

Feb 8th is almost here. Everyone around me just had their babies. 1 in 4 is the statistic and I was that 1. 4 friends and I was that 1. I wish the statistic was 0, so no one had to experience this emptiness. Its hard to remember, and its hard to forget. What am I even going to do that day? The day I was suppose to bring a little human into this world, how can I replace that? I dont know, all i know is I cant sleep. All i keep thinking is of how that day is approaching so fast and I cant stop it. Its going to happen and puff, no baby. Just another day :,(