I feel like a piece of sh*t. These past few months have been long, and hard financially. I’ve been searching high and low for a job to help me with my bills and put me through my last semester of college. I started at Walgreen’s, but when I think about it, I’m paying THEM to let me work there. They are 30 minutes from my house, I drive a truck and it takes a lot of gas. They are only giving me 15-20 hours a week if I’m lucky, it’s paid bi-weekly, and I’m only making 10.50 an hour. Stress about finances is the only thing I talk about everyday, because it’s consuming me. I feel like I’m suffering from winter depression because I don’t even want to do anything anymore. I owe so much money, and my boyfriend (bless him.) has been supportive, but I know he’s getting sick of hearing me complain about how long my employers are taking to send out W-2’s so I can file. He’s basically been paying my gas and food for me for the last month. I feel so helpless and I can’t play the waiting game any more. My birthday is in 8 days and I couldn’t be less excited for it because all I want is my tax return and a better job, but all of it revolves around WAITING. I just don’t know how to feel, what to do, or anything anymore. I just exist, my mind has no direction. 😞 Just makes me want to curl up into a ball and die.