Hi,

My little boy is three months (two months adjusted born at 35 weeks)

I was just hospitalized and the doctor is insisting on a long term medication that I cannot feed while taking it. I’ve refused for the last three months to stop. But now, feeling weak and tired the logical step is to take it so I’m strong for my baby and I’ll be hospitalized less often. Emotionally, I’m feeling very guilty and blue for agreeing to take it..

I’ve asked my family to alternate bm and formula while I was in the hospital and now he’s fully on formula when my expressed milk ran out. I was hoping to continue when I’m back but I’m still weak and my hemoglobin is dropping. I pumped and dumped while in the hospital because of the big amounts of strong pain meds.

I just need some emotional support...