I decided after this time I wanted to share my story to all other women of all ages that have gone through the same thing I have. The month of October I found out I was pregnant. Yes it was unexpected but completely loved. Me and my bf were happy. I thanked god for such a amazing blessing. A couple weeks go by I get news from the doctor that my HCG was dropping that it would most likely end in a miscarriage. I came home to my bf and dropped to my knees and cried. I cried in his arms and told him how I would never be able to give him children. Just out of my hurt. I waited 3 long days for the bleeding to start. I cried nonstop those 3 days. I bled for 8 days. It was upsetting to know it was my baby not just a period. I went to work while I was miscarrying. I had to pull myself together everyday and throw on a smile like I wasn’t bleeding currently loosing my child. I work at a hospital as a CNA. People complain so much about little things I was trying to please them and make them happy meanwhile I couldn’t be happy myself. Everyday I would get in the car and finally get my time to ball and break down after a 12 hour shift going through cramps bleeding and dealing with others bitching at me. I went back to the doctor oct 25th and showed my levels were all gone. I accepted what happened and prayed to god even tho I was angry. I asked him for a blessing to make me whole again. Even if this wasn’t my plan for now. Fast forward 6 weeks later.... I never got my period again. I decided to take a test December 3rd (scared as hell.) couldn’t believe a start positive came up. So positive the control line on my test was gone. I some how ovulated a week after my miscarriage and conceived almost instantly. I’m now 13 weeks and feel completely blessed every single day. Anyone struggling please pray to the lord. I know it hurts and its hard to believe he is listening after something like that but he is. I listen to my baby’s heartbeat all the time with a doppler to soothe me as well. I’m sorry this is so long guys but I really wanted to share some love and inspiration about the lord and about life. I am only 19....but I’ve been through enough in life to be almost 30 by now lol! Anyone needing someone to talk to I’m here and would love to help.