That I downloaded a spying app on my husbands phone ever since he cheated and I hear every phone call made, see every text receive and can just do a surround record at any time?

He cheated twice. And begged and pleaded for me not to divorce him. He's been giving me extra attention, helping more around the house, etc. My self worth and self esteem is at an all time low because of him, yet I still need and want his affection and for me to feel like I'm of some value. But when I ask him things, and he tells me the answer, I know he's lying. I asked when he last saw the woman and he promised last year. But I know he saw her two weeks ago. Because I happened to be doing a surround record when they were together. I have become such a suspicious and paranoid wife. I know you're all going to say JUST leave but I have no family, no friends, I work from home so no coworkers, and I warn peanuts and the cost of living here is sky high. I literally have no option right now. The shelters here are filled to the brim because our unemployment rate is so high, no one can afford to live anywhere and our homeless population is enormous.

Should I just confess to him I know? It KILLS me that I can't call him out on his lies.

Edit: I want to stay anon because I am not proud I've resorted to this.

@Vonnie, you have no idea how hard it is to get through my day knowing he's lying to me. You have NO idea. So like he told me he last saw her last year because he had some business to do at her place of work. But again I knew he saw her recently and they were talking about how much they were thinking about each other over December and how "what they did" was very wrong but they'd like to do it again, and how they need to stay where they are because they can't be seen and she just kept going on about how bad she looked and he kept assuring her that she looks very pretty. My heart is absolutely in pieces, my husband hasn't told me I look pretty out of his own accord for like a year now and I just thought he was grumpy but he can apparently say it to other women. I specifically recorded around lunch time because I know he has previously gone to see her on her lunch break. But he can't come and see me.

To the ladies asking, he doesn't really bother with his phone too much and this app works on invisibility mode so it doesn't have an icon or anything, the only place it shows up is on your list of installed apps but he never looks there. If you want to know what it's called m.recorder.