I have done it. I gave myself false hope yet again and disappointed myself. But I swear to god I will never have my hope up again. I finally accept that there's very low chance for us. We tried the most this month and if it didn't happen there's no way it will happen without help. I...am...DONE. simply DONE. i've officially lost all hope. And I honestly don't know how much longer I can continue to play this sad game. My heart is broken 💔💔