My daughter is 10 weeks old and I have to go back to work soon I’m in the airforce and I work long hour 12s and always have stuff going on that takes a lot of my time away from home

I’m so nervous about leaving my baby away for so many hours at a time and handling home life and work life I honestly hate my job I hate the people I work with and the atmosphere I know the mission comes first but my priorities have changed my little one was in the NICU for so many reasons one being a stroke we could’ve lost her

I get so frustrated from not sleeping and her always wanting to be with me and not her dad she seems to like my arms more than his

I cry from how stressed I am day to day basis and just thinking about going back to work gives me anxiety

I cry all the time telling myself Idk how I can do this am I going to be a good mom, am I going to be mentally able to do my job ? I don’t want to get introuble for messing up if my mind isn’t in the right place