I can’t fxxk anymore:( just sad

I hate that having a miscarriage messed up my whole system in my body I’ve been using the clear blue easy ovulation test and I don’t understand how it works because I have had a flashing face for a week and a half and I’m doing it and he’s cooperating with me but I’m just over it and if I don’t get pregnant in the next two weeks I’m going to give up because this is too much stress on my brain and body it’s a sad thing to go through I know everybody else is going through it to but nobody knows what’s going to happen in life it’s going to happen when it happens until then I just have to just wait it out I hope everyone gets what they want it’s going to happen sooner or later