9 dpo today and my daughters birthday

Bre • 👧🏼2.2.13 👰🏼🤵11.15.17 🤱 12.10.19

I thought I was really going to get a positive for my daughter's birthday this cycle but it seems it's neg. I know it's early but I'm heart broken. When will it be my time? I've been trying for 16 cycles 😪