Me and SO have been together for almost 6 years. I’ve been off birth control for almost a year now (definitely not trying to get pregnant), but the hormones were affecting me badly no matter what kind I was on so I decided to get off it.

We’re careful to a degree, meaning we usually avoid my fertile window, but don’t use protection and he pulls out.

For some weird reason, I get extra turned on by the thought of having sex when I’m ovulating or during my fertile window and I have no idea why... I know I don’t want a baby right now, but if we did it wouldn’t be a horrible thing either, although not ideal at this moment at all. Just a scary thought, especially because we graduate from college next year at 23 and want to start careers soon after.

Last night we had sex and he finished and then went back inside... I’m was ovulating yesterday according to <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> and ovulating today according to glow. I knew and didn’t tell him because he usually pulls out and then we’re done, no big deal because we have done it before. Tonight was the first time he’s ever done this (where he finishes and goes back in after wiping himself off with his hand) and part of me (a huge part) is freaking out...

He didn’t necessarily cum inside, but there’s that chance. I’ll probably buy plan B. But we have also had sex around and on my fertile days before and have never had a scare. Idk what to do.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me that I enjoy having sex during this time. The thrill?? The idea of having part of each other in mini form?? Idk. I love the idea of him finishing inside though. Wtf is wrong with me??? Ughhhh. Just needed to let that out. I’m at a loss at how I can get past liking this but also dreading this.

Has anyone ever had a similar experience??