I didn't think it was possible to hate myself this much, to loathe myself this much. I used to like myself but over the years I've told myself that I'm not good enough and never will be so I guess along the way I started believing it. I know I'm never going to find love like this but tbh I don't think it's a bad thing, why would I wanna build myself up only to have someone come along and make me realise I was right to doubt myself all along. I don't know why I talk to guys knowing full well they'll realise I'm just boring, stupid, ugly, worthless. Irrelevant. I'll never be able to trust someone and that's not fair on people who don't deserve it. It makes me really sad that I feel this way about myself, I wish I could love myself like people love themselves but it's too hard when there's just too much to hate. When you have no love life or friends it makes it a lot easier to believe it tho because nobody wants to be around you