Not doing so good

5 days (this evening) post partum & yesterday & today I've been an absolute hormonal roller coaster. Yesterday I couldn't atop crying, today I'm so irritated. I had 4 hrs of sleep the night before & last night & in constant pain (not so much from my breasts anymore my milk has came in) but I'm so tired I have no energy.

Kyah is exclusively breast fed but MIL talked me into pumping so I could shower & rest & I cried. I don't want her to take a bottle but I didn't know what else to do. Currently sitting in the bathroom after taking a shower wrapped in a towel while our other kids,my husband, my mom, MIL, uncle & aunt are downstairs with Kyah. My nerves are shot and anxiety is going crazy ATM but I just can't find the motivation to get dressed & go down there. Which in turns makes me feel even more like shit.

Idk what to do, could someone help?