I met this guy online about 2 months ago. He made it clear he wanted a relationship. Ever since then we’ve been talking and hanging out almost every weekend and sometimes week days. I told me I liked him and he said he felt the same and that he wanted a relationship with me he just wants to get to know me better and then we can make it “official”, then the time came around where I was confused of what he wanted because I was planning on going to Arizona to stay with my cousin for the summer, but if we became official I wasn’t going to go and just work this summer. When I brought that up he tells me he will make if official when I get used to schedule to see if I want to be with someone who has a busy schedule because he has two jobs. So I was like okay. So time went on and we were good. So last night I ask him what’s going on with us and he tells me he wants to be with me but he’s leaving in 6 months to college (which I already knew and we talked about it before he asked me if I could do long distance and I told him if I really cared about that person I would do it) so after he tells me that I’m beyond pissed. He says he doesn’t want to get into a relationship and then I feel like I’ve wasted my time. Which I basically already have. Wasted 2 months. I bought him a gift, I made a huge poster asking him to be my valentine all last night. I told him how he basically did waste my time already. And how everything he said was bullshit he said we could “just be friends” and I told him No. After all that we told each other bye. And idk why I kept checking my phone as if he was going to text me asking for forgiveness. He was really nice and always liked communication. Later on I sent him a text (I know which was really stupid of me) which was this. I know I sound stupid and desperate but when I catch feelings for someone no matter the time span it’s hard for me to just say bye 👋. And I’m trying so hard not bring me down. I’ve been crying all night and day. Every time someone asks me if I’m okay I say I’m fine and then I just end up in tears again. My heart hurts I feel like I can’t breathe. This is the third time this has happened and I just don’t know what to do anymore. I feel so fuckin dumb.

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