Today was the supposed to be the happiest day of my life!

Today was suppose to be my wedding day......Instead I’m sitting here at my dining table staring at my divorce papers before they are even filled out!!!

Yes, I stupidly thought I met the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. So, without hesitation a few months ago we went to the courthouse and we got legally married.

After getting engaged and getting excited about starting a new chapter of my life with a man who made me really happy, despite our differences, months later I started planning my dream wedding and put my heart into every little detail of it.

From proposing to my bridesmaids, my ring bearer and flower girl to making my centerpieces, favors, ring box and flower basket. I enjoyed every moment.

I made all the appointments and made sure everything worked around my fiancée’s schedule so he could be available without any disruption, paid for everything so he wouldn’t stress about money because he had to move far away and had just started to settle into a new job.

We fell pregnant last March and we had a miscarriage on Mother’s Day after trying and failing I suggest to go through

<a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>

cycle that I will pay for or at least freeze embryos until we are ready as a backup plan cuz I was feeling very low for failing to get pregnant. And he agreed.

Little did I know that this man had no intention of following through with his words and promises. I also found out that he had been lying to me for months!!! Better yet already seeing someone else !

With one phone call and one sentence all the way from Reno he called off the wedding 2 weeks before it was suppose to happen!

He broke every promise he ever made to me, he broke all the vows we took but mostly without hesitation or regret he broke my heart!!!

And left me 5 days after I started the <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">fertility treatment</a> for the egg retrieval cycle.

It doesn’t matter how many times people tell you “you are strong” it doesn’t help!

And those who tell you to “snap out of it and move on”, they need to keep it to themselves, because everyone grieves differently. And there is nothing anyone could say or do to make it better until you go through all the grieving stages.

My trust is betrayed

My future is turned upside down

My love is taken and stepped on

And I can’t even cry about it?

My post is not created out of weakness, or to get sympathy from anyone. I want to tell those who are out there who are going through this that you are not alone because I am right here!

This has hurt me unimaginably and it takes the life out of you!!