I have a friend who is pregnant, actually let’s call her a person I know. She used to be a friend, but honestly I cannot stand her anymore. She knows about my recurrent miscarriages, but time and time again, has been insensitive towards me. I honestly don’t think you guys have the time to read about them all. The one that has bothered me the most, is recently, she texted “I feel like a total bitch if I don’t invite you to my baby shower, would you like to come?”. I somehow had the strength and will power to just say “no”. But I wanted to say, and actually regret that I didn’t say, “you should feel like a total bitch for inviting me.” She knows how hard it is for me for one because I used to confide in her and for two because I’ve gone so far as to share with every Facebook friend through a public post, that I’ve had losses and please stop asking me if I want children. Don’t worry folks, she and many other pregnant women and people with infants have kindly been unfollowed. I think I’ll actually delete her all together. I know that one day, I may have a kid and these things won’t bother me as much, but a friends whose wedding I was in, should care and understand that I don’t want to go to your fucking baby shower. Btw this is her 3rd child, she shouldn’t have another baby shower.

Why can’t I go one day without thinking of everyone else’s pregnancy, babies and the joy I don’t get. 😔