Just a small vent. My husband is amazing so don’t talk this wrong. But I can’t really talk to him about the anxiety and depression I’m feeling with this journey, because he blames himself. But he didn’t know me when he got his original surgery so there is no blame. We’re on a few months trying VR but it’s hard, I’m sensitive on this type of thing because I really want a child with him (he has two) I don’t want to think about the pressure of having a child with a donor, I feel like it would be a lot on our marriage. I’d never leave him, I love him more than anything, I just really want a child with him. We’re at a low to none count (yo sperm test) no real one until Feb 25 and I’m just so anxious and worried we won’t have a child together. I guess I just wanted to vent here because I don’t want to upset him by bringing it up, he already feels bad.(side note, we have a big age gap, I’m younger, so we can’t really “try” for years as we would want them sooner and not later for his age.