I didn’t know where to post this.

I’m in grade 11 and once I start grade 12 we have to begin to pick what college/ uni to go to. Honestly I don’t rlly know if I want to stay living at home. A big part of me wants the “college experience” to leave home and go away to college. My parents (mainly my mom) r telling me I can’t go to a college far away cause they want me to save money and stay home. Ik u guys r gonna think “they want what’s best for u” but it doesn’t feel that way. My mom has been pressuring me for years to go to the college of her choosing and for me to stay at home. Every time I bring up a college far away she gets mad at me or try’s to find a reason for me not to go there. She thinks I’m gonna party and waste money on living somewhere else. I feel so hurt cause in my eyes what she’s doing is so wrong. It should be MY decision where I go and if I live at home or not. She says “ we r the parents so we decide.” It actually makes me so mad one of these days I’m gonna loose my shit. Her saying these things makes me not want to live w her at all. I don’t know what to do. I’m stressing so hard. Has anyone been through this w their parents before? Please give me advice!!

EDIT: I told them I’d get a student loan and pay myself.