Af here again :(

Penguin

My last cycle was 40 days, this cycle was about the same. I bd'd every other day for two weeks around my fertile week despite a demanding work schedule and people around me are getting pregnant left right and center. I started spotting only 10-11 days after my peak ovulation test so I thought it was implantation at first but it seems like af is here. I'm so sick of waiting for my bfp, when is it going to happen!? I really want a baby this year :(