Ok I’m scared of the dark! I know silly but I can’t stay by myself at night. Even when it’s dark and I’m going upstairs I look back and quickly run up.

Here a little back story. I watched a show when I was like 8 and there was someone with a mask killing people from behind. ( yeah stupid, I shouldn’t have watched it and crazy till this day it scares me)

Also I come from a big family. Family of 9 kids. So I’ve never really slept/stayed by myself. I always shared rooms/bed with my sisters. Then went to college, and had a roomate, then got married and now have my husband. So I’m not used to be by myself.

We don’t have kids or dogs or pets. (I’m expecting our first baby 👶🏻🎉

So here is the problem I have now.

My husband loves to go duck/geese hunting. The problem is he has a to leave at 3am to get to where they hunt before daylight. I’m a light sleeper so I’m always awake when he leaves and being the middle of the night it always freaks me out. I have a hard time falling back asleep and when I do I have constant nightmares and wake up like every other hour with my heart beating out of my chest. It doesn’t help that lately I’ve been looking a a lot of local news of killings and people checking front doors to see if they’re open. Once it gets light I’m okay. I can stay by myself during the day no problem. But this is a real problem for me now as my husband wants to go hunting almost every weekend as he works all week and it’s the Only time he can do what he likes. Which I’ve always supported but now idk if because I’m more sensitive because of my pregnancy the thought of just staying by myself I just cry!!

When he goes out of town I always have to have someone stay with me or I go and stay at someone’s house. It’s really annoying but idk how to get over it. We live in a really nice neighborhood and it’s not in the middle of the city but in the hills so it’s safe. But still I start to hear any noise and freaks me out. Doesn’t help that i wake up with the slightest noise. (Super light sleeper as I mentioned before) we live in a big house 2 story with a big backyard.

Last time he left me a woke up every hour and just had terrible nightmares. I cried most of the day. (When he came back he said he didn’t realized how big of a deal it was and asked what he could do to make it up to me. I said just don’t leave me again. But now he is going again. And I’m so hurt and annoyed because I thought he understood and wasn’t gonna go again.

Idk what to do. Am i overreacting or should he give it up to stay with me. I don’t mind if he does stuff during the day which he does (fishing/other bird hunting)

I’m hoping this will be better once I have my baby to keep me company but idk..