We aren’t actively preventing from getting pregnant. We both made that choice. If it happens it happens..

But every month that time roles around and I’ve been so nervous because my period is always fluctuating between 31-26 days. So I never know when it’s going to happen...

And every month I take a test when it’s late.. and it always says negative. One part of me is relived the other part is disappointed.

I know no one Is ever %100 ready for their first baby...

It feels good to say it out loud! I am terrified! Not so much of the being pregnant or morning sickness or being uncomfortable. But the giving birth part. And how will it affect my relationship with my husband!

I don’t want to share him! But I want to see him become a father again! Oh man... I am scared.