I just was broken up with not more than 3 weeks ago with a man that I was in relationship with for over a year and half. He was my first love and my first for some many things.

When he broke up with me, he said that he had fallen out of the romantic love months ago. He struggled with the fact that we weren't intimate (he told me for 5 months that he didn't want to be intimate because of his antidepressants, and I respected that even though my love language is physical touch).

So we break up, and I'm okay with the breakup, but my self esteem is shattered. I suddenly feel like I'm not enough. I felt like it was my fault that he fell out of romantic love with me. I feel foolish for being in a one sided relationship, where I loved and poured love for someone who didn't give that back for me.

Today, in an effort to keep him safe from self harm, I had to reach out to his support system (his parents) and take some drastic measures for him to take medication and ensure his safety. He was in such an emotional state that he said the following: "I always loved *his ex-girlfriend* more than you. You tried so hard but you just weren’t good enough were you... You weren’t enough".

I'm crushed and devastated. This came from the person who once protected me, cared for me, and "loved" me. He said the one thing that hurts me the most.

So now I'm not only heartbroken, but I'm here with a self esteem that doesn't exist. I keep telling myself that I am complete and I am enough, but I can't bring myself to actually believe it.

I don't know what I hope to gain by posting this, but if there is anyone in my situation, please know that you never deserve to be treated like this.