11 dpo and losing hope

Sophia

I'm 11 dpo today. Woke up took yet another test for it to be yet another negative. I am angry this morning. I'm frustrated. I'm losing my hope. I'm losing my will to keep trying to conceive. I want a child. I want to be a mother. I'm tired of ovulation tests, vitamins,supplements,etc. I'm tired of peeing in a cup to take a test. I'm tired of getting my hope's up every month to be crushed by that one pink line. 14 months and an ectopic later and I don't know what else to do. I have an appointment with my ob on the 14th. I will definitely have a lot of questions. Sorry this post is so negative. I just need to let it out.