So my husband and I have been together since high school. 9 years!! We have 3 beautiful kids and up until a year ago our relationship started getting rocky. We would fight EVERY SINGLE DAY.

So fast forward a month ago I found out he had been sleeping with someone else. He apologized, cried like never before and begged me to stay.

I took him back because I didn’t want our kids to be in a broken home ( I grew up this way)

But honestly, I care for him. He’s my best friend, I love him as the father of our kids. BUT I am not sure I LOVE HIM LOVE HIM.

I feel like my heart is numb. Like I am missing something. Of course trust is broken and I cant even begin to start forgiving him. I hate him for doing what he did, but I also don’t feel depressed over it.

Idk what’s happening, he truly let me down and I feel my love just disappeared. I don’t even have desire to have sex with him now that he’s been with someone else.

Is it because I am hurt? Because I am numb? Because I don’t love him? Idk I am so confused. Has anyone gone thru this?