So, to begin I just want to say my boyfriend and I have been dating for a year and one month. Recently, right after this past Christmas, I had a nightmare that he was cheating on me. Like calling other girls, hiding texts from me. So when I woke up, I was so anxious and the thought possessed me to go through his phone. I opened it up and found my exact nightmare. He had so many dating apps on his phone. The ones you use to just find people. He usually would Snapchat those girls he found, and get pictures from them. He never sent any, just constantly receiving. He’d also talk nasty to these girls? On Instagram, he’d message every super pretty girl in the area and shower them with compliments and ask them where they’re located. On Facebook messenger, old girls he worked with would be calling him through messenger, for god knows what reason. An old friend of his who I had been suspicious of, had been saying things in a convo to him like “our kids would be hot” and “do you really love your gf?” To which he would actually reply, “yes I love her”‘ and such things like that, but some texts he’d say “we need to meet up......... hoping I could wake up next to you”. This was all from Oct. 2018 to Nov. 2018. Another girl in July of 2018 whom he used to work with apparently went out with him and friends a lot, and every time she asked about me, he told her it’s complicated. On top of it, the other girl sells prescription drugs and he buys from her. He used to have a bad pill problem, so the fact he’s still buying Xanax and using them upsets me a lot because personally I hate those types of things. I confronted him about all this the next morning after seeing all this on his phone. He apologized, deleted everything, said he would never do it again, gave me his phone passcode and said I could look whenever I wanted. I messaged the girl who was coming onto him and selling him stuff. I pretty much told her to stop talking to him and being such a bad influence. She clearly clearly understood as I pretty much threatened to beat her ass and report her to authorities. I snooped in his phone again last night, just a tiny bit, and I didn’t tell him I did, but I told him I still have bad vibes and “I still don’t feel like I can trust you.” That’s because he’s texting the girl I messaged again, talking about meeting up with her and buying “bars”(Xanax). He’s still talking to this girl. I hate that I had to say something because they’ve been friends for so long, but seriously wtf do I do? Is there any way to fix this? Am I in the wrong? I know I shouldn’t have snooped, but if I didn’t, was I supposed to never know of all this and that would be ok? Because he always says “i dont know why you looked through my phone in the first place”. And that’s not even as bad as what he’s doing like what? Do I need to leave him? I don’t want to at all, we’re supposed to move in together in the next six months. I’m just so confused because he always talks about marriage and a family with me. Someone help! I’m so stuck. My heart aches, I feel so betrayed.