Sadness/Joy all at once 💔❤️

My collegue (who is on maternity leave) came to visit at work today with her beautiful baby boy.

I am truly happy to see them. It’s a collegue that I appreciate a lot and I just adore kids. I love spending time with little ones.

But at the same time, this TTC thing is really hard. I’m currently in my two weeks wait and even if it is only our 6th month trying, I’m starting to feel desperate. Like if my turn will never come... I want to be a mom so bad!

So this little baby’s giggles are filling with joy and sadness at the same and it’s really confusing. I don’t understand what is going on with me anymore... 😥