RIP

Rm#201J - loved chamomile tea

Rm#201R - hollered help all day

Rm#404 - always scared when he fell

Rm#106A - "sung" to us

Rm#306A - hated juice

Rm#204 - taller than I am even when he was sitting

Rm#207 - only left her room to read the newspaper

Rm#206 - always worried about the children

Rm#307 - couldnt see out of his right eye

Rm#406A - loved history with so much passion

All of these Room numbers once belonged to residents who passed(before I made this post). All of them were amazing in their own way. I added a few to the bottom, and will continue to add them ❤ It helps my sanity to be able to vent. Caregivers for elderly see alot of death, but please dont think that we get used to it. Everyone who passes while or after I have cared for them I will always remember. I have added little things about them ❤ Things I loved about them ❤

I dont know it this is an okay group to post this in or not, but I need to vent.

I'm 23 and a mom to a 1 year old boy. Im also a wife and not only a caregiver to my son.

I got into caregiving in august of 2018. I work in a community, we have Independent living, assisted living, and memory care. I've been in memory care from the start and its my favorite.

Today has been the hardest day of my caregiving career. There are 32 residents where I work so we get to work pretty closely with each one. Now memory care is the hardest. Theyre all in different stages of whatever type of dementia they have, and all at different skill levels, and different needs. Some can remember weeks ago and some cant even remember 30 seconds ago. But you love them as if they are your family/friends. Today I had to experience the hardest part of this job.

Its...

Not the crazy days.

Not the repetitive questions(sometimes even every 30seconds).

Not the shit smeared everywhere.

Not being kicked, hit, punched, or bit.

Not being clawed or ignored.

Not the days the family is rude.

Not the days when I cant wait to go home.

But Its having to change a brief on someone who wore regular underwear just weeks ago. Its having to spoon feed someone who did just fine themselvs just weeks ago.Its having to rotate someone who just months ago was walking.

Its watching them decline, watching them forget more and more of what theyre doing each day, watching the pain get worse, and eventually them passing. Watching the families come in with smiles when you first meet them and then so suddenly they are crying everytime they visit. This is the hardest part of the job.

Dear Rm # 5

I hope your pain is gone

I hope your soul is free

I hope you rest in peace

We will all miss you! ❤

"Hows it feel to be 17 again?"

Dear Rm # 309B

107 years is a long time to be alive.

I hope your life was well lived,

I hope your no longer in pain.

Ill always remember coffee tastes better in a tan or teal mug.

I know I'll hear your "yoo-hoo" from the other side ❤

Dear Rm #25

I hope your pain is gone.

I hope your able to relax

I hope your settling in with your mama

Like you've been asking lately ❤

Dear Rm #16

You had a long life

You taught amazing things

I hope you get to live your next life how you want!

Dear Rm #12

Pre-school teacher

To teaching everyone

So quiet and polite

Even when you dont want to be ❤

I will miss you so much ❤

I just want to cry. You look so good, even had a smile on your face.