I’ve had two cesareans and each time I feel so sad that I wasn’t able to bring my children in like most others do. 1st cesarean I had preeclampsia and they induced me because I didn’t progress and with the second I had planned for a VBAC and developed hypertension and was told that I’d most likely be given some iv meds to control blood pressure that could potentially stop my progress plus I would have to go to a hospital an hour away because my small town didn’t do them so we opted for the csection because I’d been on bed rest for a month. (I don’t want any shaming on this post because of me backing out of my VBAC, it already sucks to have to make a decision like that in the first place. Also I don’t think anyone should shame other over this sensitive topic I witnessed a group of VBAC mothers on Facebook bully other moms who wanted vbacs and ended in csections for not sticking to their guns even through they had some serious individual risks). It was not traumatic like my first where I was rushed in the OR due to an emergency, it was way more calming so it’s not that I had a bad experience, I want to be clear about that. I just feel bummed when I hear how other women feel so proud and accomplished after giving birth and I couldn’t experience that for myself. Just want to know if anyone else has had these same feelings. Also trust that I don’t harp on this because I have two amazing children that came from this but it does cross my mind when I read these birth stories..

Feel free to share your thoughts, experiences, feelings. I feel like I’m all alone when it comes to this feeling sometimes.

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