I hate my life

How the hell do you live knowing you have herpes? Especially genital herpes? I gave birth to my daughter 7 weeks ago and I'm over here panicking thinking she has caught my genital herpes I have had it for a few years but when i was pregnant with her they did a culture and my test came back negative but if she would of got my herpes at birth wouldn't she already have signs of it? Please give me information so I can stop panicking