Im happy for her... Just not for me...

So a friend and I started TTC Jan last year. We both got our bfps around the same time. I miscarried at 7 weeks her at 6. We both took a break. Jan this year we both started our journey again she got her bfp today and I'm overjoyed for her. But the odds of this happening again are slim to none so I know I'm out. We were supposed to test Saturday but I'm not..... Just needed to vent.... Thx for reading....