Idk if you’d consider it controversial but I wasn’t sure where else to post it and I need to get it off my chest....

I love being a mother but some days I feel like it’s stopping me from doing so much.. I’m lucky, my husband works and gets paid good enough that I don’t have to work but I recently brought up maybe getting a job to help when weeks are slow(he’s a plumber) and my husband ended up blowing up because we had agreed that I would stay at home to make sure he wouldn’t have to go to daycare or have strangers watching him and idk..

I just, I’m home 7 days a week, we don’t have a car and even if we did I don’t know how to drive(24 and I don’t even have a license..)

I’ve been thinking about going to college or taking a few classes but now I don’t even want to bring it up because it’s the same as the job.. who would watch him? I want to take baking and cake decorating classes which would have to be hands on so I couldn’t do it online.

We agreed until he was of school age I’d stay home.. he’s only 11 months old so I’ve got several years until then and I just feel so bad for wanting it and feeling like he’s holding me back..

God I sound so horrible and I can’t say these things to my husband because he worries that I regret our son and I don’t, I really don’t I just hate feeling like I do some days..