update- thank you all so much for your kind words. I’m going to refer to all of your posts whenever I feel down. I really appreciate it ❤️

Nursing? I tried for 2 weeks. Our baby would just fall asleep and lost 10% of her weight. Our doctor wanted me to pump every two hours. I’d pump, clean it and then have what felt like 5 minutes until I had to pump again. It was heart wrenching that I was with the pump more than my baby. My husband suggested we go to formula because he saw how depressed I was getting. It was the hardest decision I ever had to make but we did. Every time I see a post from someone I know about how long they nursed for or how great it is or even a picture of them doing it, I get sad that I didn’t stick with it. I feel like I didn’t do the right thing by quitting. I feel like a bad mother.