I just need to vent..

I and most of us here never thought it would take 2+ years to try to get pregnant...so here I am 30 yrs old, 2 losses in one year (1 miscarriage and 1 loss due to a congenital defect), and only 2 months left of this year to even have a child be born this year and it's only February!!!! I want to be strong, I want to not complain, I want to no longer cry, I want to be great full for the life I have..when others have it much worse, why did I wait til 28 when I was the "responsible one" who made sure I was married, home purchased, steady job so I could raise children better than what I had...yet here I am scheduling sex bc even though everyone says I have time. I want a family...I want more than one child...time is no longer on my side...so month after month I will try until I can no longer..