I don’t know what it is but the last week or so I’ve just felt absolutely awful. I’m sure it has to be the extra hormones from my body getting ready for labor but I’m just feeling so so low. And too tired to do anything about it. I have the bedroom ready for baby but the rest of the house is a mess. I need help cleaning it but I’m too ashamed to have anyone come help me. my husband has a definite “short timers” complex about the baby coming because he gets to leave work for a few weeks as soon as I go into labor so it’s all he can think about and with all the complaining about his job it feels like he’s only excited about the baby because it means he gets to leave work. I know that can’t really be the case and I’m just sad but it’s hard. i’m trying to conserve our money but I’m really tired of eating cereal and Mac n cheese. I just wish this baby would show up. I’m 38+5 and I don’t know how much longer I can do this.

thanks for reading if you got here. just feels better to vent. I don’t have anyone to talk to.