Hyperemesis gravardium... Ugh

My last pregnancy, I had hyperemesis gravardium. Hospitalized many many times and I swear I didn't think I was going to make it. It was so awful.

Well, I'm pregnant again. 8 weeks and the nausea and vomiting has already started and I'm hoping it doesn't get as bad as it was my last pregnancy.

Has any other moms had it one pregnancy and not the other?

The anxiety is killing me. I really am trying so hard to eat and start hydrated... Be excited for this baby. But the other part of me is dreading the fact that I could go through being so sick again. I feel so guilty for these thoughts. It was pure torture.